adderall ruined my life

It took me a while to put 2 and 2 together, but everything made sense once I started paying attention to when he was on and off adderall. I lived in pain for a whole year having to see her face every family thanksgiving day with the man i love sitting side by side kissing him and hugging maybe to piss me off or something it only made me hate her more and more desperate to get my boyfriend back. Please help me I feel very lost in this situation. Perfect to work on my ego for others to accept my person? He talks incessantly about fantastical plans and ideas and gets hurt and angry if I indicate that I am bored or overwhelmed with the detail he adds to EVERYTHING, or even have to go to the bathroom because he has talked so muc. I was placed on Adderall at age 15. She seemed like she loved me in the begining. On Adderall you can end up staying like this, unproductive for years. With the reduction of dopamine receptors, the person needs more and more of her favored substance to produce the euphoria it once offeredher. I think he has been taking adderall for over ten years. When you can finally drop down you feel lazy but can still make it through the day. I finally got back on my adderall and here I am today. I just don't know what to do. Even though we looked identical she was cuter than i was. He is, and he certainly doesnt want to talk about that with you. So now I really am stuck, I have to find a way to deal with this. My life was no longer my own, she writes in her New York Times Magazine piece. By the time I got back to school, I had lost about 10 pounds, and the support was incredible. She broke up with me and now I have stopped taking adderall and to look at everything now I was really selfish and it was bad. The next day after our date, I spilled my beans about how I felt and that I would only be involved with him if he stopped the adderall. I couldnt even bring myself to think that my twin sister can put a knife at my back Yes i know everything about our childhood and youth age was always about who is better that who in everything and frankly i was better that me in academic aspect of life. Lifes just not fair. I'm living a rollercoaster with amphetamines (paste/powder) too, it's a hell I know. We share a lot of similar interests except one. Everyone, including myself, need to learn more about themselves and seize ignoring whats happening in their lives. Not sure how to fix myself. Adderall has doubtlessly helped many people who were prescribed it, but it has also hurt many others. The healthiest, most hopeful mix. She didnt want to marry me but she wanted to be my lover in secret. I was numb. Why should you expect a call back from him when he knows youre judging him for his medication? You dont appear to need your partner at all. I dont feel any depth or emotional stuff, like if im around my family or Caleb & the conversation goes to something sad, or funny, or whatever kind of real feeling- & i just dont wanna hear about it. I told him we could be friends and I would break my rule of not having any guy friends, because I love him that much. JavaScript is disabled. Just time passing by. Its a horrible cycle. As foolish and crazy as this my sound , it was what i almost did. I dont know if I can take another year of showing him I love him when I cant see any sign that he loves me back. I used to hate feeling lonely, and now thats all Ive become. Changing my day around his schedule so I dont miss his call, not going out at all so I can talk on the phone for however long he can, not being able to call him and ask him things or call him if I need him . com. But he told now that weve dated for 10 months and he got to know more parts of my personality he wont want to be with me again. I would strongly suggest finding a local NA group and going as often as possible also AA groups help. I spend countless hours facebook stalking her the first week and texting her like crazy. We also need to think about whether our regulation of this controlled substance is working. I had never dealt with anyone like him. He has some health problems and as a result we have not been intimate for many years. Excuse the irateness. The longest I have gone without it is 6 weeks. They are very hard to help. We broke up and went our separate ways. Not being familiar with the side effects, I felt like a was just getting a line because he didnt want to be with me anymore. He rarely if ever touches me anymore and has no libido. I was successful like this before, I will continue to be successful. I have taken adderal since I was about 16. Granted, Im no saint either. this is the real deal with me & without a doubt im sure many other college kids, too. He truly is. I told him that I always had attention issues, I was impulsive, smoked, had unsatisfactory grades in high school, couldnt latch onto subjects that I noticed my peers were understanding clearly, to which was all true. Let me make one thing very clear, many of us parents are fools, we get caught up in our childrens glory and stupidly bask in the limelight of their winnings but no parent who is deserving of the honor of being a mom or dad ever wants their offspring dependent on a drug to feel self worth, especially at the expense of self acceptance, dignity, happiness, knowledge, trust, awareness and human connectiveness. I dont socialize much because of work hours so I have few friends, but I have always been somewhat of a loner. When we first started dating I took it upon myself to visit a doctor about what was wrong with me. They were also the first generation of Americans to habitually abuse these prescribed stimulants as study drugs well into high school and college (a 2012 review found that the nonmedical use of these pills represent the second most prevalent form of illicit drug use in college, afterweed). Its like he shuts down and distances himself. I guess should I be hopeful and patient? Even if you love your partner, when they call you while youre at work, tweaked out on Adderall, youre going to say just let me finish this thing Im working on. When you say this, you know its just the Adderall talking, but they dont know that. Should they? It's been incredibly effective & has made me finally be able to work like a semi normal person. Okay I just want to add to the responder Greg not only is Adderall with Niki ruining her romantic relationships but its also ruining her other relationships. Not so. His parents are beginning to see it, but are helpless to help. I was placed on adderall XR 30mg a year ago. I mean i only found out the day he told me was no longer want to be with me that he was in love with my twin sister and he has been cheating on me with her. I get lots of attention since I started these hormones, I mean massive attention, but now I feel little back! Our relationship had a very co-dependent feel to it, but it brought us closer together and became the norm. All my friend thought i was crazy because even when they tried to help me i pushed them all away so basically i was all alone in my world of pain i had already given up on life i mean i thought to myself if cant have Sean, i was not going to live to watch him be happy with someone else. Yes, you are in a tough spot--both with the drug and with life in general. She forces herself, this new guy and myself into a three way conversation so I can be convinced they were the same soul. I think we all know what is the right thing to do. Within those seven days of incantation pray my soon to be fianc developed something i dont know what to call in her head that made the love she had for me resurface i say resurface love because she became that girl i fell in love with back in Latvia she told me she was going to call of the wedding but was scared what would happen to her father relationship with the man. Meds put my back in the game, but my new years resolution is get off all of them in 1 year, start after the holidays and MAYBE have a wonderful 2016 through the help of my psychologist. She called off the wedding and nothing happened it was like no one cared anymore not the man or her parent almost like it idea was yipped of their head. Youre demanding a lot from this poor boy without adequately considering his perspective. If I'm not careful, the adderall makes me want to drink until I blackout. Anyway, Im going to study abroad soon (which, by the way, makes taking the medication a very difficult endeavor), and the relationship is probably not going to continue during my time there. Heaven know i was gonna kill myself because i really had nothing to leave for and he didnt even care if i lived or died. Now, if you never have to work again and you are retired or super rich, I am all for quitting it, or at least not taking more than a tiny dose to wake up, that often can be enough to get you by. I have felt like I was going crazy. Every problem is solved first by identifying all the facets. It has helped me become who I am. Or, maybe you still wont be that much more attracted to them. I want my old self back and I hope in time Im able to find that person again. This is the problem though. Hes tearing me apart. It just feels like im in a relationship with someone who hates me when hes on it. Will I ever be able to trust in him again? Im tired of feeling abandoned. She explained that he opened her mind the way no one else has, and he inspired her to be a better and more creative person. I stopped taking it or should say ran out very quickly, and was ok for a few weeks until I refilled my prescription. I started to think about all the relationships that she had and how they were very shallow and almost nonexistant. Let them know that its going to be a long trek, but that youll both be all the stronger on the other side. Was being equals before just an illusion? 2. It is not intended to be and should not be interpreted as medical advice or a diagnosis of any health or fitness problem, condition or disease; or a recommendation for a specific test, doctor, care provider, procedure, treatment plan, product, or course of action. She became very selfish and i knew that i didnt like what i was seeing/feeling. I broke up with him today. Then fall semester started for her and she started to use it. From 12 an hour to 15 in 4 months time at a place I had already gotten fired from. we started fighting a lot and things were just rough (many tears on my side). Even though youre in the best possible situation, relationship-wise, too quit Adderall with your relationship intact or strongerdo your significant other a favor and warn them first. We have nothing to talk about. Then it dawned on me that these are side effects to the meds she was using. I know I am, if you are under 28, hormone replacement therapy will be too soon for you, but I am 33 so it is a young age but works. I never feel like I can talk to him the right way. During one of my vyvanse and alcohol fuled mental breakdowns, I got so mad at him I ran all the way to my ex boyfriends apartment from years ago and layed on his stoop in tears, thinking my life and my relationship was hopeless. Why is rehab out of the question? 2 years ago he decided to take adderall for misguided weight loss reasons and got a legit. I refuse to accept abuse and justify it with their illness leading to pity that never ends and EVERY boundary is pushed to the f***ing limit!!!! If you think your significant other would welcome you leaning on them AND youre very afraid of losing themthat means that on Adderall you have a push-pull, but in reality you have a pull-pullyou both love each other a great deal. I recently . Her soulmate (hmmm Ive heard this before). My partner of 21 years began taking adderall prescribed for a sleep disorder and to boost his mood. Even those lucky enough to escape the drugs addictive grip are sure to experience bumps along the road. I feel so fucking sad and alone and abandoned, all because of this cursed drug !!! Ive been keeping track to make sure Im not just insane; he hasnt told me he loves me without me saying it first for weeks. My health has taken a dive. I am downright stupid useless & oblivious once it shortly wears off, worse than I'd be if I hadn't taken it. I begged him to come back to me. If I dont talk to them, or see them, it doesnt even bother me. Ive taken the approach of giving him space (but I made it known to him that Im here to talk and be there for hik, but would give him space until hes up for that) so I dont crowd him. Hed leave little post-its on my desk before I came in (we worked together at the time). It's sad to see a family torn apart from addiction but I do not feel comfortable around her and I don't want her near my son. You will find a way to get it done after you are adderall free. We were together for over 8 years. I hope this helps someone. I lost many friends and was rude to my family before finally realizing what was going on. Never once did I think that being on adderall for the past three years may be affecting my life or my relationships, though I should have. Will I even get out of bed to go a job interveiw if I get one? I started taking it once in a while because it made me more social and it spun out of control. I texted her after he trip to ask her how everything went, of course she said he was amazing. Problem is that is the adderall. Because Adderall is a stimulant, after its effects wear off, a person may experience the reverse of what it was intended. Most rehabs will also help you get into a halfway house where you're required to find a job, do choires, attend meetings and be sober.

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